On days I’ve felt exceptionally down, I like to read my old blog entries to pick myself back up.
Why? Well, because some of my entries were written during a time in my life that I lovingly refer to as my QLC or Quarter Life Crisis. It was during a span of a few years where I felt completely lost and maybe lonely. Reading those entries makes me realize that despite feeling discombobulated during those times, I actually had a pretty great time. Also, it is a great reminder that despite how hard I thought life was back then, I made it out.
Anyhoo, I wanted to share an entry I wrote when I was on the verge of turning 25 and yes, I really have come a long way. Also, please forgive all the grammatical, punctuation and syntax errors, lol.
I’ve always enjoyed writing. I guess it was an inevitable result of my love for reading. For as long as I could write, I authored a few short stories, poems, songs, and novels. I have a blue binder in the back of my closet that store all these- some dating as far back from when I was 8- as well as some paintings and sketches that I had made.
Now almost 2 decades later (Ew, haha) I still continue to write. I have 4 unfinished novels, and yet here I am beginning to write a new one. Sigh. I wish I had someone who would type all my ideas down for me. Do you remember that magic quill and notepad in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire? I’d love to have that. It’s not even about the typing that gets tiresome. It’s the fact that I become so engrossed into my characters that I start feeling the the things I want them to feel. If you’ve read any of my stories (and i know i merely summarized a few plots to some of you), you’d know that sometimes it’s not the healthiest way to feel.
So here I am beginning Novel #5. I’ve already gotten the characters lined up and i’m almost done with chapter 1. I really need to find an editor and publisher. I’d love to see my ideas come to life on the big screen some day. I kinda wish I’d finish one of these novels earlier so that I could have started peddling the manuscript around. Who knows if it woulda been in pre-production as a movie now.
On a side note, i have now begun to read Breaking Dawn. It’s bittersweet. I have over 600 pages more to go, but after i finish, then what? I’ve become so engrossed in these novels that they became like a drug to me. It’s like I’m addicted to these books and I just need to keep reading them. At least I have the movie to look forward to. I actually found that widget in the top right corner, randomly on the net.
Well, once I finish Breaking Dawn I guess I can focus on one of my unfinished novels.
Does sadness really equal creativity?
As a Psychology graduate, studies about the link between the two have interested me greatly. Whether due to a cause and effect scenario or basic correlation, there have been many cases of great thinkers and artists who were undoubtedly depressed.
Where do I fit into this scenario?
It comes as no surprise to my friends and family that when writing certain emotional scenes in my books, I often take on the feelings and characteristics of my characters. In such cases my sadness is the direct result of my creativity. Then again, there are other cases when a specifically bad mood may cause me to go on a writing binge (see One and Done) so in that case my mood really did affect my creativity.
Why am I telling you this?
Well, it’s no misnomer that emotions can greatly affect one’s level of creativity. These effects may be for the better or may be for the worst. With me, it’s more of a hit or miss.
It’s true that in exceptionally sad cases I’ve been known to lock myself up and write my heart out. In fact, I’ve come up with many story ideas–most I still have to write–because of this. That being said, sometimes when I am exceptionally depressed there is no budging me. My mind won’t work. I can’t think. All hopes for creativity are thrown out the window.
In late 2013 my husband and I began our journey to start a family. After years of being told that sex=pregnancy, imagine my surprise when I found out that it isn’t always that easy. Month after month flew by and still no bun in the oven in sight. Cut to 2014, I was officially diagnosed with fibroids and endometriosis. We had to put “trying” on hold for a couple months as I prepared, had, and recovered from my laproscopic surgery. If you’re interested, you can read about my experience in my blog: Painting with Robots . Anyway, after going through that particularly difficult time, I felt uplifted and we began to try again.
I had my first positive pregnancy test. I was ecstatic! I was over the moon! Then almost as if it were some cruel joke, I lost the pregnancy. Chemical Pregnancy – I hate that term with a passion. Regardless of how early a miscarriage is, it’s still just that–a miscarriage. I know it’s the medical term or what not, but calling it a Chemical Pregnancy just rips the emotion from the loss, doesn’t it? It makes it feel sterile and robotic. Trust me, it’s not. Many, many, tears were shed. Feelings of anger, sadness, worthlessness, despair (I can go on and on) flooded through me. In fact, in my despair, I confused the times of an Author Event, which I NEVER do and missed my time slot! Sadness was definitely not fueling any sort of creativity for me then…
Now here I am.
January 2016 and still on this painful journey. I’m not saying I’m sad or depressed 24/7 as I have so many blessings to be thankful for, but sometimes the smile on my face is definitely just a mask.
So again, why am I telling you this?
For therapeutic purposes, I suppose…
Also, I wanted to let you know that sometimes writing breaks are completely necessary, but not something I particularly like to take. In fact, after my early miscarriage I took about a month to just compose myself and read. That’s not saying I didn’t have many story ideas fluttering in my head. In fact, despite my deep sadness I’ve manage to accumulate about 6 unfinished manuscripts and finish 4 more by the end of 2015.
All in all, writing is my therapy. Reading is my therapy. Daydreaming, imagining and creating different worlds are my therapy.
Writing takes a lot out of you and despite wanting to take a few breaks, amidst the sadness there is no denying the pull towards it.
Writing is my drug.
So, next time you pick up any book, whether it is full of tears or maybe even laughter, take a minute and imagine what the author may have been feeling at the moment it was written. It may be that those characters were exactly what he or she needed to be pulled out of a funk.
Does sadness heighten creativity? I’m not sure. But creativity definitely helps diminish sadness.
Wow! It’s been a hot minute since I updated my blog.
I have a confession to make — I suck at keeping up with blogs. Over ten years of Livejournals, Xanga, Blogspots and now WordPress all given up and rotting somewhere out there in cyberspace– I suck. But you probably have already figured that out.
So what have I been up to?
I finished up 2015 by completing two manuscripts for an upcoming New Adult Sports Fiction series that hopefully will be published early this year. I’m really excited about the new series and can’t wait to share more information about it with you!
I am also planning to re-release a manuscript that I had once self-published (more about that later).
I am beginning 2016 by focusing on a goal that I’ve had for years – script writing.
Yes, I am currently penning my first screenplay and let me just say that it is a challenge! A fun challenge, but a challenge nonetheless. Either way, writing it makes me happy and for that I am thankful.
That brings me to something I want to do better/focus on in 2016– Gratitude.
Say it with me : Gra-ti-tude.
Though I am not one to squander blessings, nor am I one to overlook and expect things given to me, I feel as if sometimes I look to the future so much that I don’t take time to just say “THANKS” for the things I do have/things I’ve done as much as I should and could.
I am an overachiever, plain and simple, and because of that I am always striving for the next goal, dream, and plan. Yet, once I achieve these things, do I just sit still and feel the sense of gratitude I should? Sure, I am thankful and I say my prayers of thanks but am I really as appreciative as I can be?
I’m not sure.
So, in 2016 I want to focus on just saying thank you as much as I can. I want to focus on saying my prayers of thanks and though I will continue to strive for my goals, I want to take my time and appreciate those I have already reached as well as blessings I am given.
With that being said, thank you all for always believing in me and supporting me ❤ May 2016 be your best one yet!
There are two sides to every story…ONE AND DONE is Jesse’s tale
Awesome news for my Australian readers! LOCKED IN (Caught Inside #2) is currently 99 cents and currently on Australia’s Sports Fiction Bestseller list as #2!
Grab your copy at this special price and prepare for ON THE OUTSIDE (Caught Inside #3) release on NOVEMBER 13, 2015!
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Harper Montgomery had it all. As the rising star in a new hit sitcom, she was making waves in the Big Apple until one nasty rumor quickly extinguished her flame.
After her character was unceremoniously killed off the show, she finds herself a pariah of the television world. To make matters worse, she makes the horrible mistake of sleeping with her best friend’s ex-fiancé and soon finds herself pushed out of her BFF’s life.
As one final attempt to salvage her career, Harper moves to San Diego, California and lands a role in a new movie. The only problem is, her character requires an in-depth knowledge of the water, which this New Yorker has none of.
Tall, dark and handsome, Xavier Greene has always been a go-getter, but very unlucky in love. As the producer for a new beach flick, he finds himself assigned to the task of teaching actress, Harper Montgomery, the ins and outs of California surfing.
Though the two have nothing in common, they soon find a mutual attraction. Unfortunately, Xavier’s sister Kacy and childhood friend Riley Dillon want nothing more than to tear the two apart.
Will the hotheaded New Yorker and laid back Californian make it work?
Or will their relationship be left on the outside?
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✦✦✦ Author S. Briones Lim ✦✦✦
Thanks to her Mom’s unwavering devotion to read a childhood bedtime story to her every single night, S. BRIONES LIM’s love for books began before she could even speak.
Raised in Southern California, Lim initially dreamt of becoming an artist. After a Psychology Degree (Summa cum Laude), a stint in Art School, and a career in Advertising/Media she is finally diving back into her first love – books. As a self-renowned bookworm, Lim’s love for reading has inspired her to pen her own novels and hopes her readers will fall in love with her stories as much as she enjoys writing them.
Her obsessions include time with family, Cherry Coke, popcorn with jalapeños, watching movies and her dogs, Tobi and Roscoe. She currently lives in Virginia with her husband.
LIMITLESS PUBLISHING: http://www.limitlesspublishing.net/authors/s-briones-lim/
Check out the beautiful cover for ONE AND DONE (Two Outta Three #2). It’ll be released on October 13th so please mark your calendars and save on Goodreads!
There are two sides to every story and this is my version…
Silver spoon? Spoiled?
Definitely not how I would describe myself.
After growing up in a dysfunctional home, my future was basically laid out for me—get stuck in Bethel Falls and watch the only girl I ever loved move on to greater things.
Of course, life can be one unpredictable S.O.B., and now that the tables have turned, I’ve found myself a successful job hundreds of miles away from her.
So now that I have to move back, why am I so scared?
But hey, if I could survive my mother, an obnoxious new stepbrother, and a near death experience, then seeing Rocky again shouldn’t be too horrible.
At least, I hope it won’t…
I’m socially awkward, no if’s, and’s or but’s about it. If there is a way to avoid eye contact, public speaking and/or changing out of my pajamas then I am all for it.
Marketing your book is an integral part of this industry. Unfortunately, being a writer can’t be all about hiding behind the safety of your computer—or can it?
Facebook Release Parties are quickly taking the literary world by storm. Along with blog tours, web ads and other social media efforts, these Facebook parties allow writers to become up close and personal with their readers from the privacy of their own computers. In fact, it is due to these types of parties that I’ve been able to attract more readers and also make some awesome new friends—not to mention hit an Amazon Bestseller list for the first time! It’s all about spreading awareness.
So what are these parties? From my experience I’ve encountered two types. The first kind allows you to network with other authors. Takeover events typically take place on the day of the Host’s book release and can span a few hours. Different authors sign on to takeover an allotted period of time (usually an hour) in which they do everything from playing games, giveaways, sharing teasers & excerpts, and most importantly connecting with current or soon-to-be readers! The beauty of these types of parties is that fans of different authors will typically stick around for the duration of the party allowing them to be exposed to new writers including you! On any given day or week there is a Takeover Event going on and it is pretty easy to find hosts searching for authors to volunteer their time. Just join any of the Book themed Facebook groups and I can guarantee you will stumble across a pending party.
The second type of party I’ve had the pleasure of experiencing puts YOU in the spotlight! These Release Day Parties differ in length depending on your preference and also requires a lot of backbone. It is quite similar to the party I mentioned above but there are no other authors to share your time with—this party is all about you, baby. So send those invites out and ask your friends, family and readers to help spread the word. You wouldn’t want to go to your own party alone, right? If you rather not coordinate the party yourself, feel free to Google Book PR Companies online. Many of these companies offer Release Day parties as part of their services.
Partying isn’t just for extroverts anymore. Facebook parties allow introverts (like me) to not only spread awareness of their work but to also get to know many people from around the world, all from the comfort of your living room.