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The Unexpected

I’ve taken a bit of a break from blogging. Not only have I been focusing on writing, which I am happy to report I’ve finished the second draft (or third draft depending on how you look at it) of my new YA manuscript. It’s off to the beta readers right now, so crossing my fingers for good feedback! I’ve also been focusing on healing and just figuring out what it means to be me again. If you’re wondering what I’m talking about, please read my last few entries as I don’t really feel like rehashing everything here.

Long story short, I’ve always grown up with a specific vision of what my life would be like. After the past five years, I’m not sure what that life is going to be anymore. Needless to say, along with grieving, I’ve had to somewhat come to terms with a “third-life” crisis as I like to call it. So, I’ve been focusing on doing all the things I’ve wanted to do, but never allowed myself to do during my TTC (trying to conceive) journey in fear of hurting my chances of becoming pregnant. Truthfully, it’s a bit fun at times, but also scary. As a perpetual planner, what do I do when I don’t know what to do?

Yesterday my mom and I watched the newest movie adaptation of Little Women


I’ve always been a fan of the story and LOVED the 1994 version.


I was curious to see what a modernized take of the classic would be like.

It was cute of course, but there were a lot of one-liners that really resonated with me. One of them had me sobbing in the theater. Think Kim K ugly crying.


Forgive me if it’s not verbatim, but it was something along the lines of:

“You’re a writer. Don’t you want your [life] story to be unexpected?”

That’s the thing about writing stories, isn’t it? You don’t want your stories to be predictable. The best stories are unexpected–so, why can’t my book of life be the same way?

There is also a scene where Beth mentions how the greatest stories  have some sort of tragedy in them. But these same stories have an abundance of love as well. Needless to say, the past five years have been horrible, but the good thing about them is the outpouring of love I’ve always received.

The reason I love to read and write is because all stories, regardless of what they’re about, have a way to touch their audiences mentally, emotionally and sometimes spiritually. Needless to say, watching the movie yesterday reminded me that life will always have unexpected turns, but my story isn’t over yet.

“We each have our own paths to our castles”


**Spoiler Alert**

Not that a spoiler alert is needed since the book has been out since 1879 and there have been many movies released since then, but let me say this is the first version where I’m actually happy Jo ended up with Friedrich



Can’t Win Them All

In just 24 hours I received 2 reviews/ratings for my debut novel, Green (Book #1 Life Force Trilogy). To say they were on opposite ends of the spectrum is an understatement.

One of my ratings was very flattering:

“…Holy hell! Freaking loved it. My jaw hung open through the end. I was floored. Can’t wait to start Red…”

I went on to receive a 5-star rating from this reader.

Next, I received a 2-star review that was quite humbling. Honestly, it kind of kicked me off the euphoric high I received from that 5-star rating!

“This book was ok there were alot of type o’s tho.”

To say I was a bit disheartened is a bit of an understatement. I am the type to learn from my reviews, so I will go back and re-edit my manuscript before I finally get to release it for the Nook and iBooks (I am currently in the Amazon KDP Select program). Though it had already gone through multiple rounds of editing and beta-reading, we are all only human and so I don’t doubt that there may be a few typos in there somewhere. Regardless, it saddened me a bit that this reader didn’t fall in love with my story.

What now? When I came into this business I was a bit apprehensive. I wanted to share my stories with the world, but at the same time I was fear stricken with the idea of putting myself out in the public. As an introvert, I tend to shy away from being in the spotlight. Allowing my book to be available to the masses was both a dream come true and a bit of a nightmare. As my own worst critic, my self-doubts often tell me of things I can’t do, not things I can.

The night I published my book my husband told me that my life was about to change. He told me to be prepared for everything that may come my way, including the obstacles. My coworker and fellow writer also told me that reviews are quite bipolar. Every reader holds different opinions. What one reader (Reviewer #1) believes may not  be what another (Reviewer #2) does. I appreciate each review I receive and take all my feedback into consideration. For my first reviewer I’d like to say thanks for reminding me why I went into this business. Sharing my stories is all I wanted. It feels great to know that my story touched a reader as much as my favorite books have touched me. For my second reviewer I’d just like to say thank you for even giving my book a chance 🙂 I appreciate you taking the time to read it regardless of whether or not you liked it.

Thick skin is important in this business. It always amazes me how many of my favorite shows, movies and books are reviewed and rated so differently than what I believe.

You can’t win them all. This is a lesson I believe is important for everyone – not just authors – to remember.